I know you've been a very nice friend to nearly everybody. You can call me a manusia yang rakus, selfish, childish or what for I might be asking too much from you.
No matter how, you lack of sincerity in friendship...at least in my opinion. I felt like being toyed or used. You only started to treat me as a "friend" after your other friends had left. Yes, I know, I understand what you've been through and I shut my mouth up.
It's simply because I don't want you to suffer. I don't want to ruin our friendship just because of duh-things. But recently..I started to think that you might had abused my good intentions...consciously or sub-consciously. Frankly, I'm quite sad but I don't know how to tell you 'cause based on my previous experience, it's not a great idea to ask you "Am I partially abandoned by you?". It seems like I'm nothing and worthless to you. Yea, maybe that's right. You told me about that before. And friends don't talk to friends like this. Those words pierced through me. They stabbed my heart till now. I just ignore the pain and cover it up.
I began to feel the loss of my only listener. Change is good, but it depends on the situation.
Or maybe I'm asking too much from you.
Dear friend B,
I had thought of telling you about these since the past week. I don't know what's going on but it's seems like you're mixing with the wrong groups. That's not the way you shape your personality but destroy it. You think it is cool to join them but i don't think so. It is so damn foolish. I don't know how long will this situation persist but I hope one day you can think about it and realise.
You complained about other's but...have you ever think more and deeper about yourself? Nobody's perfect! And please stop being so self-centered, it is irritating my ears to learn all about you, you and YOU for a long time! It's okay if you only talked about yourself several times but not everyday.
Yet, there were good sides of you, I believe that's the you without the mask. I know you can be a good friend and fun to be with.
May the balance be with you.
Dear friend C,
Hey, Ive nothing secret to say about you! CHEERS! =)
There are still a lot of friends I want to confess to but failed...so
-Don't treat me differently just because I scolded you for your wrong-doings.
-Stop being so "Big Small Sister" and go get a life!
-What's wrong about studying?
-I looked bad on the outside, but i'm trying to change inside.
-Don't campur 2 different things together and complain as if you're mistreated.
-Try alternate thinkings, okay? Not everything is bad in life. It's only your narrow scope and immature attitude making your life miserable.
I'm done here.
If you realised you're the one mentioned above, please don't hold a grudge against me.
Think about what you have done instead.
Whether the action is right or wrong to you,
I just need a place to pour my heart out.
Sorry if I offended any of you.
This is how I felt
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